Despite my best intentions, I hovered over election returns until so late that I ache this morning. I find myself grateful for escaping the crimson tide that deluged my Show-Me State. But I digress. It’s Wednesday, I’m Palo-Alto-bound, and thinking of the ocean.
Sunday screeched into the heels of Monday, which slipped its arm around Tuesday and faded into the grimy night. I walk around the house with my mug of warmed coffee, ruminating over whether to buy a few groceries en route to South Bay, or pack a cooler. After my 90-day appointment at Stanford, I’m escaping to a night at Pigeon Point. I feel reckless and energized, for no apparent reason other than Wednesday.
I think the man on the sidewalk grinning just before the piano hit must have felt as I do today. I’ve always suspected that I have a touch of mania. I’m not giddy, precisely; just unreasonably hopeful. I dwell in a state of perpetual acceptance of doom most of the time, despite whatever enthusiasm you might infer from my smile. I like the world but don’t expect too much of it. I have a sixty-three-year record of disappointment, after all.
But the little electric heater hums. The sun shines. I can’t see the river from this vantage point, but I sense her sleepy sojourn around the contours of Andrus Island. Constancy soothes me. Tonight I will wrap myself in a shawl and curl in an old wooden chair, gazing at the sea.
I have no reason for optimism other than a boundless suspicion that possibilities still exist.
It’s the seventh day of the fifty-ninth month of My Year Without Complaining. Life continues.