In the quiet of my house last evening I thought of the variety of folks in my life. The dog looked at me at one point and turned her head slightly to the left. Yes, yes, I know, I said, outloud, to no one, and walked through the kitchen to open the back door for her.
I spouted with a mild level of fury at a blatant due process violation yesterday, sputtering indignantly at an administrative agency’s arbitrary policies. I guess that’s “complaining” but it’s my job. Otherwise, I’ve managed to stay the course.
But I listened to someone belly-ache for a half an hour the other week and wore a genuine smile the whole time. Settling in my chair, I raised my coffee cup and kept the person’s gaze. She gestured with her own cup, brown drops splattering on the table. Her voice rose; her forehead pinched. I sat and let her words roll over me.
I’m not complaining about complaining. I understand not everyone travels the same path. I hope my friend felt better for her tirade. As for myself, I walked away from the encounter with a deeper understanding of her unhappiness.
It’s the eighth day of the twenty-fifth month of My Year Without Complaining. Life continues.